don't confuse them with mountains.

my breasts are not large because they have brains in them. so stop staring.

i don't know why we put up with it.

once in a while, whatever. it's a common mistake. but it's also about being aware of your surroundings. i dont check out every guy's butt. only some. kidding kidding.

Diary of the Chubby Friend

Someone once said to me that in a small town context I was a "10", however in most others I would merely be a "2". Apparently it was supposed to be a compliment and also illustrate the superficiality of the outside world.

I am not chubby. I am not overweight. I am the woman who will fight anyone who tells me I need to lose weight. But I am also the girl who will cry when she feels fat. It doesn't make sense. I'm so livid that society views skinny as beautiful and... that I do too. I am heartbroken that I have begun comparing myself to my friends and feeling less adequate. They do not have to try hard to stay thin. I have to try hard to not gain 40 pounds this week. Society is forcing people into seclusion if they don't have the "correct" metabolism or bone structure to look boney. And that's what they look like. Boney.

I just read a postcard on PostSecret from a woman who said she prays to become anorexic. I have done the same. Thinking that having this disease would help me become beautiful. Isn't that such a sick way of thinking? Maybe that is why I am so adamant about voicing my opinion on society and the media's skewed vision of beauty... because I, too, feel that thin is beautiful yet I don't fit that mold. It's disgusting that sometimes I view anorexic looking girls as beautiful. They have more will power than I. They are surely successful in life if they can deny themselves so much.

This problem isn't going away. There are so many problems that aren't going away in our world. Global Warming. Poor Parenting. Unfounded beliefs. Misperceptions of beauty shouldn't be on this list. Why do people have the audacity to judge the looks of someone else?

Today my mother told me that I'm beautiful because I light up a room and I have a pretty smile. While those words were nice they were empty to my ears because I've told my some of friends the very same things, and while true, they were said to quiet their fears. I can see no conclusion to these thoughts or that problem so there will be no conclusion to this message.